Average Thoughts

Are experiences more real with expiration dates? It’s a very interesting question, and for me, it’s often the last question that I receive from a believer. They will way something along the lines of “well, don’t you WANT to believe in heaven?

Well, no. Not really.

Let’s concede for a moment that there is a heaven or something like it. A area wherein the “good” people are rewarded for being just and moral and the “bad” people are punished. Let us call the other one “hell” just to make it easy to understand. So, there is this collection of people that are together because of their moral success. I’d say the toughest part is deciding who allows and creates these moral guidelines. What is morality? It changes in the Bible and even the followers of the religion don’t use the morals in the bible. If you did, you’d never work on Sunday, eat shellfish or cut your hair. If you’ve never heard these verses, read the thing. It’s scary. But, again, let’s pretend that all beings are judged based upon some moral guideline (hopefully a better one than put forth in the old testament) and then placed in either heaven or hell. It’s the ultimate reward, right?

I don’t really think so.

I don’t want to exist forever. If I do, then the very short time you spend on earth is pretty meaningless. I mean, if you live to be 100, that amount of years is nothing compared to eternity. When the sun explodes and all life on earth dies, you’ll still be alive. In theory, still living with your significant other and attending church in heaven with your parents. For fucking ever. That is scary.

Infinity is not a number, it’s just a theory. Just imagine that your time on earth was represented by the number 0 to the number 1. In that time frame, there is literally an infinite amount of irrational numbers that fit between them. But that is what religion wants us to believe. That living forever is good. That weather in a state of euphoria or a state of torment, that our existence is eternal. For a devout member of religion, they will kill themselves to achieve this feat. Oh, and if you just happen to “believe” in the wrong religion? You’ll spend forever in the bad part too.

If there is a god, I hope that he understands what I am trying to say. I don’t want to live forever for if I do, everything here has no meaning. I will do what I want for a reward, not because it is the right thing to do. I do what I want because I seek acceptance, not because I really feel like I have to. I lie to my fellow man, only to achieve something that rewards me.

Anyways, if there is a god and that god has a heaven and hell, hopefully my honest and truthful reflections and thoughts are what he uses to judge me. After all, I think a lot more than some other groups do.